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31st-Jan-2009 07:22 pm - Writer's Block: Left Behind
Vana // Reach for the stars

What do you want done with your body after you die?

Submitted By [info]crunch_crunch


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I want to be cremated. Whichever of us dies first (me or Rob), we are going to keep the ashes of the other, and then whoever dies last will get mixed with the others' ashes. Seriously. Cocktail style, it'll be awesome. Then, our freaked out children can sprinkle us wherever the fuck they want.
12th-Aug-2008 02:48 pm(no subject)
Salvatore // morning star
Rome is awesome.
30th-Nov-2006 04:31 pm(no subject)
Vana // Reach for the stars
Rhye,

In case you're wondering, I did see the note you left in your journal for me a month or so ago. To be honest, there is very little I could say, even if I wanted to, in response to it, hence why I have never seen fit to reply.

If I am the horrible person you paint me to be, then quite honestly you're better off without my friendship. I refuse to take all of the blame you have tried to make me shoulder. I have my faults, and I am quite aware of them, but I am in no way the bitch who takes great pleasure in picking people down to their bare bones that you portray me as.

We all have to do what we can to get on in this life. This is what I have to do to get on in mine. I've removed you from my friendslists on my three journals here on LJ. I hope you understand, and I wish you well in all your future ventures.

- Kirsten
19th-Apr-2006 04:29 pm - This is how the World Died
Vana // Reach for the stars
It is a sunrise and a sunset.

A beginning and an end all at once and all together, jumbled together into some semblance of a day, of a time. The harsh lines of where one has been spliced with the other should be ugly and ragged, but they are not. They are beautiful, and clear, just like the scar that puckers on His shin where bone exploded through flesh on a summer's day as He Himself had careened through the sky, so sure that that He could fly, because after all, is that not what youth is?

False hope and shattered dreams?

He remembers the smell of sunshine and sweat, the prickle of hair between tiny, pudgy fingers as His father carries him to the end of the world and back again on broad, tanned shoulders, because He is His father and His father can do anything. He is a god amongst men, and He is so proud, so proud that He can lay claim to this man. This man is His.

And as He looks back at life from His deathbed, seeing the frayed lines of that sunrise and sunset patched raggedly together, he knows that He was not His at all. He was no one's save His own.
23rd-Mar-2006 07:45 pm(no subject)
Vana // Reach for the stars
Stealing from Meru and Nell:

Name a muse, and I'll tell you their sex life/attitude towards sex.

Because I can't be arsed doing them all.
20th-Mar-2006 12:21 pm - Abby ~
Vana // Reach for the stars
Picspam - Paz Vega aka Older!Lil?

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Vana // Reach for the stars
Pick a muse, and I'll tell you something about them you didn't already know.
28th-Feb-2005 01:06 pm - Fen and Fin
Vana // Reach for the stars
Fenella and Finlay are both Celtic names, meaning, amongst other things 'white', 'fair', 'noble', 'soldier' and 'blonde-haired'. Fin's name is quite amusing for the sad case that is moi, as it could be taken literally as white/black. Black and white. Hmm. What could I do with that? :p

I'm in the middle of doing a small ficlet with these two because I wanted to bounce them off one another and see what happened, the ultimate goal being that the writers block would end. It's about half way done, maybe. I have a few ideas about Fen now. Things never seem to be as they first appear with my lot. I have an idea about them, and then it changes and suddenly we have a complete 180 role reversal, Evie being the case in point. She was meant to be a snooty, upper class Brit who hated blood and anything that could be considered messy. She's now a recruitment advisor/agent for the CIA who very much likes to kill and apparently used the first impression as an undercover detail.

So Fen seems very sweet, almost child-like naive, and yet I wonder...what can I do here? How can I make her who I want her to be? When I started the drabble with Fin, it became glaringly apparent, and I think it may turn out quite well. The two of them have an almost sibling relationship going on, without any of the bickering really. Very close, very easy company. It's rather cute.
16th-Feb-2005 02:26 pm(no subject)
Vana // Reach for the stars
*blows dust off the character snippet journal :p*

Wow, not used this in forever and a day.

Olivia.

Olivia is a character that I very, very rarely use. Not because I don't like her, hell, I adore her. But she's hard for me to play for a variety of reasons. She's a very reserved person, much happier with a few people than in a crowd. She refuses point blank to talk to anyone unless they either interest her or they ask specifically to talk to her. She is certainly not my social bunny. The only people she has talked to since she was created over a year ago have been Ben, Taran and most recently Angelica for an hour or so.

She loves a debate, to put forward a point of view and to argue it well, most of all enjoying making people think rather than simply accept pre-concieved ideals. The worst thing, for her, is perhaps complacency, and accepting something simply because you feel you don't have the influence to change it. She'd rather try and fail than not try at all.

I don't know why she got the this point of near hermit, of purposely excluding herself and detachment. I think it probably has to do with a great love affair, or perhaps a family matter. She had a younger brother whom she watched drown while she was young; she couldn't save him and has always blamed herself. Maybe, says the amateur psychologist, she cuts herself off so she doesn't feel she will let others down the way she feels she let him down.

Olivia is unerringly straight, and has a crush, and no I am not telling you on who. She'll never make a move on him, though. Not her style. I can't see her ever saying 'I love you', but I've been wrong in the past about shit like this and I could be wrong again.

Her kids, Joss and Claudia, represent different facets of her personality, of who she was and is. I imagine that Olivia in her university days as something of a hell raiser, an activist, and I think that her convictions would probably have earned her more than a few arrests and nights in the cells. Her paper is her baby. She worked so hard to get up the ladder to get where she is today, and that single, bloody mindedness and determination are probably what keep her going even when people like JP decide to be utter shits to her.

Claudia, to me, seems to be that younger!Olivia who wants to prove herself. She works her way through University by stripping in a high class club. Olivia publically despairs of her, denouncing the work as irresponsible and unbecoming of her, but is secretely pleased that her daughter shows the same gumption as she herself did in working her own way through college instead of living off handouts from mummy, which she could quite easily have done. Instead, Claudia told her mother to keep the money unless she really got in trouble and pays her way through her half-naked endeavours.

Where Claudia is set apart from her mother is that she is a terrible flirt, and it quite often backfires on her. She flirted with Noah, though he is quite obviously gay and very much in love with her best friend. She sees nothing wrong with it, it's part of her personality and I doubt she realises it's flirting or at the least over-friendly and over-familiar. She simply sees it as being friendly and warm. Really, no concept of boundaries or personal space at all. She has her mothers brains, but tends to prefer to party than study, and will always pull an all nighter before an exam or paper is due rather than study. This leads to her getting fairly decent marks, but nowhere what she could get if she applied herself.

Joss, on the other hand, reminds me of Olivia as she is right now. Very quiet, very reserved, very much of the not-talking-unless-poked. Much more serious than his sister, he falls quite neatly into the elder brother role, but not in the over-protective sense. I think he gave that up after a few million 'fuck off's'. I have...no idea what he does. I get the feeling he's in a creative field of work, much like his mother, and occassionally features in her paper, but that's not his main focus or expertise. Joss, though I created him a lot earlier, I actually know less about him than Claudia, simply because he has only ever talked to Erica, and that was months ago. He. Will not. Talk. Claudia will quite happily poke someone or anyone, Olivia and Joss are the complete opposite. They are of the need-to-be-poked set.

Older!Olivia, I have no idea about yet. She's still quite, she aged well, she now has a series of publications. She has never, ever told her children who their father is. They have never seen her with a man they could guess to be involved with her, and she claims to not have boyfriends, merely lovers over the years. Personally, I think she's a bullshit liar, but we'll see.
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